Raw Superwoman

Oh my goodness, what a complete emotional roller coaster the last few days have been!! It can best be described by a quote from one of my favorite movies, The Matrix: “Fasten your seat belt Dorothy, ’cause Kansas is going bye-bye”. Accept, instead of Dorothy, this is Dorota, and Kansas is way below me  now. I am stuck in a tornado of emotions.

Physically, I have not experienced any more detoxification symptoms after going from a High Raw to an All Raw diet one week ago. A couple of days of digestive upset and some resulting fatigue, and that was it.

However, I feel like a lot of emotional issues are coming up to the surface for me – and fast. I have been completely aware of these issues before, no doubt, and have been chipping away at possible solutions to them in my own good time, but now I feel like they have simply come out, they’re in my face, and they’re saying: “OK, you have to deal with us now. TODAY. Not tomorrow. We don’t care if you’re busy. We don’t care if you’re not ready. NOW”.

And so I obey. I have spent most of the day alone today cleaning my house (which for me is incredibly therapeutic and allows me to really think) and writing a lot in my journal.

One emotion that has come up for me has been: anger. I am so unfamiliar with this emotion, because I am a very calm, mellow person. And yet there I was today, so frustrated and angry, I was throwing pens down on the floor as hard as I could, and I also flung one unfortunate magazine across the room.

There have been interludes of intense mental clarity, a deep sense of peace and total mellowness. Unfortunately, these have been rather brief.

It’s Sunday night now, and honestly, I am emotionally exhausted. I just want to go to bed.

I have to say though, this experiment so far has solidified for me a truth I had already known: there is something magical about commitment. Since I have become totally committed to 100% raw, things are just falling into place, like recipes: they are just popping up into my head based on what ingredients I have available.

Speaking of recipes, here is my food intake for the past three days. I typically eat a lot more food than this; I believe my appetite has been a lot less than usual.

Day 5
For breakfast, I had 1/2 banana and a Green Smoothie made of a bunch organic kale, 2 small oranges, 1 banana, 1/2 Tablespoon maca and 1 Tablespoon flaxseeds.

For lunch, I mixed some cabbage with soya sauce and nutritional yeast and munched it down with some baby tomatoes.

For dinner, I had  4 nori sheets with mock tuna wrapped inside of them, along with a tomato.

I had no appetite for snacks between my meals on this day at all.

Day 6

For breakfast, I chopped up an apple, an orange, a banana and mixed it up with raisins and cinamon. I also enjoyed a cup of green tea.
For lunch and dinner, I had a simple salad made of spinach, avocados and Heirloom tomato with sea salt.
I also had 1 cup of juice made with beet, carrot, apple, garlic and ginger.

In between meals, I snacked on a Lara bar (key lime) and  a lot of raisins.

Day 7
Breakfast consisted of a banana, and 1 shot freshly juiced wheatgrass juice and 1 glass juice (carrot, apple, orange, strawberry) which I grabbed from a juice bar while out for a walk with the dog.

Later on, I had the contents of 1 young coconut. Then I made a pudding from one frozen banana, meat of 1 young coconut, dates, raisins and 1/3 cup soaked almonds.

For dinner, I got my Raw Gourmet on and made raw pizza crackers – a nice spread of raw tomato sauce (made with fresh tomatoes, sun-dried tomatoes, garlic and herbs), and nut cheese (Brazil nuts, garlic, lemon, sea salt, nutritional yeast), topped with chopped shallots, mushrooms, olives and zucchini slices.

Later on when I got hungry,  I also has some watermelon and a few more pizza crackers.